It was just a thought.
In July 2018 I was heading to shoot a family beach session in Brigantine NJ. One of my best friends who happens to also be an amazing wedding and portrait photographer was in AC shooting a boudoir session for one of her clients. Since we don’t get to see each other often she said, come stop by and we can play! I’ll photograph you! I was scared as F! I had never been photographed this way before. Being that my husband and I were coming up on our 10 year anniversary I said let’s go! I hope you enjoy my “why” behind my boudoir photography story.
I didn’t really know what Boudoir was.
I thought it was naked photos.
I’m not lying. As a “newer” photographer I had no idea really what it was about. I kept thinking about naked photos, or overly provocative photos. All I knew was I was NOT getting naked! Even though this was a good friend photographing me I was still nervous. So in 2022 when I talk with my clients I know exactly what they are going through. I walked away from my “Let’s play around” shoot, feeling empowered, and like a million bucks. Appreciating my body and embracing all of my flaws. YES I also have insecurities about my body.
I want to make a difference in women’s lives.
I was bullied as a kid, I wasn’t the “cool kid” and I didn’t have the brand name clothing. Heck I lived in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farms and cows. I wore glasses and I played the flute. Let’s not mention I was a little plump for my age. I remember in 6th grade a boy called me a HOE. My response, “Why are you calling me a garden tool”. Yes…. I had no idea what he meant. Why I remember that at 41 blows my mind. I was insecure about my body and what people thought of me. It haunted me for years, into my twenties and a few years into my marriage and after having kids. Will I ever be good enough? Pretty enough? Strong enough? Just enough.
I learned to love myself.
It took me a VERY long time to love myself. I didn’t really start to shake it off till I hit 35. After my daughter was born I started to not GAF and started taking better care of myself, my health, my mental health. I was in a job that had me on a hamster wheel. I wasn’t going anywhere and I REALLY disliked what was happening around me. So I took control of my life and got back in the drivers seat. When women inquire about a boudoir session they want to do it for so many reasons. The #1 reason I get is, “ I want to give my significant other an album”. Yes! Gifting your significant other an album of you all looking some type of fine is all types of fun. BUT, do it for you. Not for them. AND if you are giving it, you both are winning! Getting basically naked in front of someone that you hardly know isn’t the easiest. BUT seeing those photos right after your shoot will make you forget all about that jazz! Accepting all of you is the first part of loving yourself. You are not doing this for someone else, you are ultimately doing this for yourself.
I do this because I love it, It’s not just a job, it’s a passion.
I love changing the way women see themselves. Photographing boudoir gives me all the feels when I see your eyes water up at your reveal. Yeah that’s you, on the TV in the studio. After I’ve delivered your album you come running to me and tell me that this is JUST what your marriage needed. I do this because you are struggling with postpartum, and you ARE THE QUEEN, a WOMAN that birthed life into the world. Boudoir photography, because I have helped so many women see themselves in a body positive light. Photographing boudoir lights my fire and I love watching you see yourself with new eyes. My why behind my boudoir photography is more than sexy photos. Making connections , forming new friendships, and watching my clients fall in love with themselves all over again means the world to me!
Checkout this blog on 6 ways to prepare for your Boudoir session! I hope you enjoyed my “Why” behind boudoir photography!